I’m lacking motivation. Morale. Inspiration. I don’t want to work out for fear of dying. I don’t want to play paintball because I don’t want to run around and get tired. I don’t want to wake up because I’ll have to go to work.
I was thinking about writing a will. You know… just in case. This whole head trauma thing has put me on edge. Well, not so much on edge, but on something weird. Worried. Is being worried on edge? But what’s to worry? The only thing is Jake and Bella. I just don’t want them to forget about me.
WHAT THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT? NOTHING’S GOING TO HAPPEN.
I’ll wait a week before I work out again. My neck hurts. My head still has that lingering headache. Maybe it’s psychological? Maybe its not. Maybe there’s a slow leak in my brain. Can Donna sue the ER for not taking the extra step of an MRI given the fact that I had a contusion of some sort if I plop down dead?
WHAT THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT?!? I NEED TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT.
ROUGH SEX.
My buddy told me he had sex with this girl who wanted to be spanked. He tried it. She liked it. He didn’t. WHAT’S WRONG WITH HIM?
WHAT THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT?!?? CHANGE THE SUBJECT.
I’m eating two apples a day. Supposedly if you eat more healthy snacks during the day you can lose weight better. I need to eat a lighter dinner though. And work out more. I was going to start working out at 5AM. But man, I can’t get up at 4:30. It’s too damn hard.
Last night I worked till 6:30. I was at the office for 11 ½ hours. Then drove an hour home in bumper to bumper traffic. By 7:30 I was wiped out. I waited for Donna to get home, we ate some dinner provided by my awesome sister, and then we watched My Name Is Earl. Funny ass show in my opinion. But my favorite show now is Two and a half Men. This week’s episode was hilarious.
Jake is sick. Fever. Earache. I asked him if he felt sick at school. He said ‘yes’. I asked him if he played. He said ‘yes’. I asked him why he played if he felt sick. He said ‘because it was only soccer. You just stand there and kick the ball’. I was like… ‘oh’. Made sense to me.
Bella didn’t want to hug me this morning. I said, ‘okay I’ll go to Kena’s house and hug her’. She said, ‘okay bye’.
Earlier she wanted her bottle. It was like 5:00 AM. I struggled out of bed and as I walked out through the door she said, “I luv you papa.” I made sure her milk was nice and warm.
I am looking forward to my favorite time of the year. THANKSGIVING. Where I get to eat turkey. But its never ever enough. I have to make my own turkey. My very own twenty pounder. And just eat, eat, eat. I like to eat. I’ll work out after November and gear up for Chirstmas.
I’ve been sitting on some movies from Netflix… But I’ll get to them. Here they are.
I just haven’t been in any kind of mood to sit through a movie lately. I want something fast, quick and over with. Like a sitcom or hour show. I guess it’s because I can get through a sitcom without having to pause and continue on some other night. When I watch a movie usually its late, I’m tired, I get thirty minutes in because that’s my attention span lately, and then I have to turn it off. Then I have to get back into it some other time. Sometimes I don’t get the full effect of the movie and I lose a lot of that momentum the first thirty minutes is supposed to give you. So although movies could be great, I think they’re a little blah. The loss of information due to the wait time in between my daily intermission is just that. Loss of information pertinent to the telling of a good story.
But I’ll get to the above.
I believe I’m supposed to take next Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off for the Holidays. I’m totally on board with that scenario. So it’s possible I can fit in a movie here and there.
What’s next on my Netflix queue you may ask? Well, here’s the next 20.
1 - Moonlight Mile
2 - Confessions of a Dangerous Mind
3 - Anger Management
4 - Y Tu Mama Tambien
5 - The Twilight Samurai
6 - Monster
7 - Ringu
8 - The Manchurian Candidate
9 - Chinatown
10 - The Longest Yard
11 - Meet the Fockers
12 - Good Boy!
13 - Being Julia
14 - Saw
15 - Ikiru
16 - Ray
17 - Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
18 - Spider-Man: Season 1: Disc 1
19 - Spider-Man: Season 1: Disc 2
20 - X-Men: Evolution: Season 1: Vol. 1
Yuck. I need some recommendations. That list sucks big time.
To end this unmotivated rambling of an entry, here’s some pictures from a while back that I found and that I love.
Jake ready to go tobogganing.
Bella in the snow for the first time. She didn’t like it.
Bella was shaking her head in this picture because she saw me do it earlier to get a motion effect. So when Jessica took her picture, she’d always shake her head and she had blurry shots.
And that’s it…
And you know my saying… IT IS WHAT IT ARE.
Goodbye now.
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